I Will Not Be Silent.

This is going to be a different type of entry. It’s the sort of entry I never thought I’d ever have to write. So something happened yesterday. To save myself the trouble of having to type out all the words, refer to the screenshot below of a Facebook status post I made yesterday.

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There’s the whole story. I feel disgusted, insulted, and pissed off. I can’t believe that I’d ever be on the receiving end of this bullshit. He says he’s sorry but I’m not feeling anything sincere from it. He actually thought that video was going to get a rise out of me? Give me a fucking break…

I’ve sent a report to Facebook help center, I’ve taken a screenshot of my facebook post from yesterday, I’ve told my friends about this, I am not keeping quiet about it.

I tried to be cool. I tried to be classy by not even calling out his name, but fuck all that!! I am not Jesus, I am not perfect, I will not show mercy or forgiveness. I will tell my story. You cannot silence me.

That’s it. I’m done.

 

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2 thoughts on “I Will Not Be Silent.

  1. Nathaniel Pierce says:

    Hey. I’m really sorry about that. I had no right to talk to or treat you like that. Or anyone else for that matter. I completely understand your hatred for me and it’s completely justified. Not excusing myself or attempting to rectify the situation but I need serious therapy. Ever since my mom first started getting sick leading up to her cancer diagnoses a few years ago, I had been slipping mentally.

    I’ve been having the worst time at staying afloat mentally once she lost her fight with cancer a year and a half ago and the old toxic behavior I exhibited towards Mike and Kris have been resurfacing in more aggressive ways. And I’m truly sorry for that. I never want to hurt people and I’m seeing more and more lately that I become unhinged more times than not and then I become completely disgustingly disrespectful.

    I don’t think I can salvage anything from this relationship or any of the others I have carelessly burned and that makes me an awful, disgusting person because of the things I said and did.

    I need to get therapy as soon as possible for myself and those around me. And that’s exactly what I’ll be doing. No one deserves the disrespect I’ve exhibited towards you or anyone else I’ve hurt and upset with my harmful rays.

    I’m truly sorry and I intended on getting into therapy immediately. I gotta kill this demon before it gets worse, if that’s even possible. I’m ashamed of how I treated you and others in the past as well.

    It takes a certain strength of character and sense of self in order to heal, progress and grow after losing your parents and most people that I know that have had to deal with the same events show much more character and strength than I could have dreamed of during there time of mourning and growth.

    None of my behaviors exhibited any inkling that I possess any of those positive traits and unfortunately the negative behavior I profusely exuded and toxic outbursts have cost me some friends and truly good people along the way.

    I’m really sorry about what I’ve done. I’m not a good person and my actions have had consequences accordingly.

    I can’t continue to be this person mentally. Unfortunately, it cost me another good person that mistakingly befriended me.

    Words can’t begin to express how disgusted and disappointed I am in myself.

    I’m going to aim to deconstruct and reconstruct myself with the help that I need in order to salvage any sort of human decency I have left.

    I’m truly sorry.

    • It’s too late for apologies. Too late for tears. The damage is done. So you’ll forgive me if I have trouble feeling sorry for you. I don’t know if you will get better or not, but I don’t care. Because I’m not going to be there to watch it happen.

      I have never felt so uncomfortable and disrespected in all my life until then. If you’re getting help, great! Good luck to you then because as you are now you are a huge fucking embarrassment to your mother’s memory. What would she think if she saw you behave this way, huh? Think about that the next time you do ANYTHING. You and me, we are done.

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